Sunday, July 19

Small ...

... my Small, has failing kidneys.
Bloody kidneys, the Achilles Heel of cats.
She's still with us, snoozing on the footstool, leaning on Mr Brown's feet.
She will be taking some blood pressure pills (which she will hate), she will go on yet another special diet (which she will hate), she will be given special "supplements" (which she will, no doubt, spit out) and will continue to pootle around the house until, well until she can't anymore. None of this will fix anything, but will keep her around, comfortable, for a little while longer anyway.
She's nearly 17, I know she's old and doddery, I know what's inevitable.
But I don't want to think about it anymore, it makes my eyes hurt, and leak.
Fuck it.

9 comments:

Zee Poodle said...

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhh, darling one.

I am so sorry to hear this news about dear sweet Small. Please give her lots of little kisses and hugs from me and give yourself a big hug too. Be brave and stay strong. Please keep us all up to date with developments, ok? xxxxxxxxx

Ms Brown Mouse said...

Ta caw, I'm all unable to cope, she has a fucking heart murmur to ffs, could anything else go wrong?

Zoomie said...

Morgan, you've given her 17 years of luxurious life - what more could she want? When I die, I hope to be reincarnated as one of your cats.

M said...

oh no.

She doesn't look 17. She looks like she'll continue on for a while. Hope.

Sadness.

Pink Granite said...

Dear Morgan,
We've been down this road with our four legged family members as well. The illnesses, the gradual diminution of powers are so difficult for us humans to bear.

From your description, it sounds as if you and Mr. Brown have done a wonderful job of caring for your cats and repeatedly catching things early. All those "well kitty" checkups are beneficial. Otherwise, the lovely Miss Small would not be nearly 17 years old.

Hugs and love to you, Small, Mr. Brown and Ping...
- Lee & Chuck

cookiecrumb said...

So sad, and you will miss her. That's what's killing you now, knowing you will miss her.
I've gotten pretty good at taking my boys (sequentially) for their final vet visit, and I've even seen some beauty in it.
But the eyes, they do leak. Even when your little pet has been horribly, incurably ill.
Kisses, doll.

Ms Brown Mouse said...

thank you all, this makes me leak from the eyes at work, not a good thing. I have to stop thinking about it.

yodaroshi said...

Cats are Cool.
Siamese (or even mixed Siamese)cats are the coolest.
Be in the present moment, since that's all we really have.
Hugs to you.

Ms Brown Mouse said...

yodaroshi - thanks, Small is a Siamese and she is very cool indeed.